08 Aug 11
God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes. -Psalm 18.24
I will always have fond memories of a special night at Velo in March 2005. Everything I had planned for that night’s Bible study was completely pushed aside as we experience our first Rubicon moment. Dictionary.com defines Rubicon as: A limit that when passed or exceeded permits of no return and typically results in irrevocable commitment.
We were in the middle of a video series teaching by a well-known speaker and were slated for our third session. Earlier that day, the Lord had impressed upon me to change the usual order of the night and have the girls do something with me in faith. I struggled with the idea, challenging God on how the girls weren’t coming to Bible study to hear me. They were coming to hear the speaker on the video series, and it wouldn’t be right for me to take their valuable time before we started.
After spending most of the day arguing with God, I finally obeyed and took a step of faith. As I began to speak the message that night, the power of God fell on everyone in the room, and for the next four hours, we prayed and ministered to each other as time seemed to stand still. Needless to say, we never got to the video.
After that incredible experience, I began to put unnecessary pressure on myself wondering how in the world we could ever top that encounter. Looking back, I realize we have had many other special nights at Bible study. They have all been completely different and unique, but every bit as powerful in their own way. Each one was just what we needed at that moment.
Since that time, I’ve settled down a bit, and the Lord has helped me to have a greater understanding of Rubicon moments. I have learned the value of the moment changes according to your needs, and transforms as you change and grow. The moment and value will change. That’s a guarantee!
I remember getting my first real bicycle from my parents around the age of six. I loved that bicycle! I used it to ride back and forth to school and around the neighborhood with my friends. When I was old enough to get my driver’s license, my parents bought me a car. you see, my need had changed because of my age. It was a new time in my life and a car was much more valuable than a bicycle because I was old enough to drive. The gift of the bicycle was a wonderful memory. However, that moment in my life was over. Just like moments that occur in the present are never repeated, there are special memories that we remember from time to time and then move on.
I’m learning to let the moment morph into what it is going to be and just enjoy its memory. I must be careful to try not to relive those moments because it would be impossible. I have to allow God to guide me every day so that as I continue to pursue His purpose in my life, I won’t miss any Rubicon moments that he has for my future.
